The writings and ramblings of a 70+ year old great- grandmother who enjoys writing and illustrating books, painting in oils and watercolors, and doodling with colored pencil while holding a puppy on her lap. She also has been with her husband of 54 years, who is a retired truckdriver who has never lost the wanderlust.
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Saturday, March 14, 2026
Productive Writing
Thursday, March 12, 2026
Back at it finally!
I finished my outline/summary yesterday, and today I posted the rough draft of Chapter 1 in my focused study group at WVU. I'm excited, because it means I'll be getting feedback from others and can progress now to Chapter 2, which is another chapter I had lost in my computer crash a few years ago.
I may have to rewrite the chapters I've lost, but hopefully they will be better than the originals. I was so thrilled to find my notebook last week with my outline in it. I've also found my notebook with the printouts of chapters from my first novel, which is close to being completed (rough draft) and will be ready to start editing and rewriting.
I'd post my chapters on here, but I don't think anyone is reading my blog anyway. I never hear from anyone about it. It is one of my goals for my life to get at least one of my stories published. I don't expect to get rich or famous, but the idea of being a published author has long been a dream of mine.
My art is another dream. I have sold a few paintings, not for any large amounts. If anything, I practically give them away. As a matter of fact, I am running low on storage space and have a LOT of paintings around my house, so if anyone is interested, I can share pics online of my art and you can purchase them dirt cheap! lol
In the meantime, I'll keep writing and painting, and storing a lot of it in boxes in the basement. Talk about a fire hazard!
Back to work, Dixie!
Tuesday, January 27, 2026
A good and productive day
Today I
decided to clean out my closet. What a mess! I had no idea I had so many
clothes. Spring and summer are all mixed with the fall and winter clothes. They
were packed in boxes and bags and lying loose on top of a little dresser inside
my closet.
I worked for
hours on the piles and boxes, sorting them out into summer and winter piles.
Each pile went into a bag or box labeled summer, winter, or donate. Some were hung back into the closet to be worn
soon. I’ve got a nice selection of tops
and sweaters.
I have a lot
of leggings and jeans. Those were sorted into piles of jeans that fit now, and
the ones that don’t fit were put into the donate boxes. I am donating a couple
of summer housecoats that really are too tight and aren’t comfortable.
T shirts! I
have a mountain of T-shirts. I’m donating a lot of those. I found a lot of Ruby
Ribbon Camis, demi cams, and other items that are nice yet and quite expensive
to buy. I’m thinking about sending some of the nicer stuff to one of those
resell shops.
I’ve got a
bunch of blankets. I’m going to put a couple into the car for those frigid
mornings when I just can’t get warm, even with the heater on. The rest will go
back into the closet for the cold winter nights.
A lot of
stuff went into the laundry room to be washed. I’ll have to be careful with
some of the delicate stuff that can’t be dried. I tend to dump everything
together into the dryer from the washer.
I think I’ve
finally gathered up all the Christmas sweaters. I put them in a plastic tote
and sealed them up. They’ll go on the back porch until next Christmas
season. I’ve got one Thanksgiving turkey
sweatshirt. I might wear it occasionally since it doesn’t have the word
Thanksgiving on it.
I packed away
my two swimsuits. I don’t think I’ll need them anytime soon, if ever
again. I really don’t look attractive in
a swimsuit and haven’t for about 40 years at least. I still remember that
little yellow polka dot bikini that I used to wear when I was in college. I
looked good then. But that was more than 50 years ago, before having babies.
Sigh!
I still have
a mountain of clothes to go through, but I ran out of time, so the pile is back
in the closet. But the pile is smaller than it was, and I feel good about what
I’ve accomplished. I knew I’d never get it all done today. Maybe I can work on
it again tomorrow.
I also did
some laundry and got my floors swept. So it has been a productive day. And as
you see, I found time to write in my blog. YES!
Now I need
to get a painting sketched onto canvas so I can get another one done for the
bank. With only 3 members at the present time, I must display a different
painting every 3 months. That’s going to keep me hopping.
So, here’s
to having a good day! It was a good one and I feel good about it. I hope you
have a good day too.
Friday, January 23, 2026
January 26: Big Day in Our Family
Wednesday, January 21, 2026
Writers Village University
Saturday, January 17, 2026
What do I see?
What do I
see when I look in the mirror?
A face only
a mother could love.
I see hazel eyes
that reflect the colors in my clothes, eyebrows that are unruly and straight,
with a couple of hairs that obstinately stick straight out and are white or
gray in color. My eyes are not as strong as they once were. My vision is
gradually deteriorating, a consequence of my gluttony: lots of fatty foods and
delicious but deadly sweet treats. I do have kind eyes, though. At least I
always have strived to look kindly on others.
A mouth that
once was delicate, with soft pouty lips,
now is either a thin straight line or compressed into a downturned angry expression. It’s not the face of my dear mother, more the
face of my dad, who kept his smiles to a minimum, and only briefly allowed them
to peek through his serious persona. Life has not always been kind to me. I do
need to work on that expression though.
My ears are
rather small, something I’ve always appreciated. I inherited them from my mom. My dad’s ears were
considerably larger. My hearing is diminished now too. Most sounds are garbled and my tinnitus is so
loud I can’t understand what I do hear.
I know it is frustrating for hubby to have to turn up the volume on the
tv for me. Most of the time, I simply tune everything out and use my earbuds
for my phone or computer, where I can have the volume that I need. It’s frustrating,
to say the least, but it’s my life.
My skin has
aged rather suddenly. I used to use skin products on a regular basis, but now
that I’m retired and basically a hermit at home, I don’t bother with the skin
creams and ointments that kept my skin supple and soft and wrinkle free. Age spots appear all the time, with a new
crop showing up at least weekly. Maybe
someday they will all join together and I’ll finally have the “tan” I’ve
always wanted but always eluded me. Wrinkles are like thieves, stealing my
looks and my youth. They surround my eyes and my mouth so far but are creeping
upward to my cheeks like a thief in the night. Too tired to worry about such vanity anymore,
I just watch and curse them. I do have some moles that I watch closely,
especially since having a cancerous squamous cell lesion removed under my left
eye a year ago. The scar is healing well, and I have to look closely to see it
now. My glasses also help to hide it.
My hair is
straight and a mousy light brown with gray streaks around my face. I think it
makes me look tired and old, but my hairdresser thinks my hair color is
attractive and “suits” me. Whatever. I stopped coloring my hair back in 2020,
after my mom died. I just didn’t have the desire to do it anymore. It does save
money to go au naturelle.
So, what do I
see when I look in my mirror? I see a woman who is 74 years old, a woman who
has led a life of work, sorrow, pain and frustration, but also a woman who has
had many joys in her life. My husband is a retired truck driver, who has
dedicated his life to “taking care of me” and sometimes that is wonderful, and
sometimes it adds to the frustration.
My family, children,
grandchildren, and now great grandchildren, are the joys in our lives. Their
photos line our walls from top to bottom. My little dog, Maizie, makes me laugh
but also annoys me when she snoops around the house and finds things to chew.
My faith in
God is my rock. The Lord has been good to
me, and my Guardian Angel has been busy trying to keep me out of trouble. When
our youngest daughter was killed in a house fire at the age of 21 in 1999, God
gave me the strength to carry on. Without Him, I would have dissolved into a
mess of quivering sobs. I’ve cried many tears for my Teresa, but we’ve learned
to cope and move on with our lives. Having her daughter, Regan and granddaughter,
Maliyah help us to see joy in our lives again.
So, I look
in my mirror, and see a daughter of God, a wife, sister, mother, grandmother
and great grandma who finds joy in her family, enjoys her art and writing and
animals in her life.
I see a life
well lived.
Sunday, January 11, 2026
Friday, January 9, 2026
OCIA Returns
Walmart pharmacy
It'd been a long day already at 2:15 p.m., so I was not
exactly in the mood to deal with a cantankerous answering machine at Walmart.
Yesterday, I called the VA to check on my Tresiba prescription. Well, that was
a bust, because I never got beyond the opening message about how it was a
government facility and not to be used by anyone unauthorized to use it---blah,
blah, blah, then put on hold for the next available representative. I was on
hold for 12 minutes and never got to talk to a human, never got beyond the
recording "please stay on the line. All our representatives are currently
busy taking other calls. Your call is important to us and will be answered in
the order it was received." After about 15 minutes, I hung up the line and
called the doctor's office to check on my prescription from that end.
The call -waiting time with the doctor was much shorter,
only about 4 minutes, and I reached the doctor's nurse, Lisa, who was very kind
and helpful. She investigated the computer records and came back on the line
and apologized because she had never gotten the medication ordered. She said
she remembered saying she held off on ordering it from the VA because she
wanted to see how I'd do on the medication from the sample she'd sent home with
me 2 weeks ago. I explained that I was almost out of the pen she'd sent with me
and that it would take 7 to 10 days to get it through the VA unless it was put
on urgent request and I would still be out for at least a couple of days. So,
she promised to put some aside for me to pick up at my convenience. I explained
that I lived about 65 miles from her clinic and I wasn't sure when I could get
down there but would be there in the next few days.
So, this morning, we left Clyde about 10 a.m. and headed for
Salina.
When we arrived at the clinic, the receptionist was polite
and asked for my birth date and name, and what I needed today. I explained that
there should be a package waiting for me from my doctor. She disappeared into the
back office and soon returned with a package for me. I thanked her and we took
my package to the car and I opened it. To my surprise, there was not one pen of
my Tresiba, there were five pens, enough to last about a month, maybe more.
After we ate breakfast at IHOP, we went to Harbor Freight
where Dennis bought a wheeled cart he needed, then headed for home.
On the way home, we discussed stopping at Walmart in
Concordia to pick up some prescription eye drops I needed. Dennis offered to go
in and pick them up for me. I stayed in the car and read my paperback book.
After reading for about twenty minutes and then taking a
short nap, I was awakened by Dennis climbing into the car and saying “Well,
that was a bust. I didn’t get your eye drops. They told him they didn’t have an
order for my eye drops. I knew that was bullshit because I had just gotten an
email about them being ready for refill the day before. They told him they have
to have an order or refill request from the doctor, then they can refill it.
They didn’t offer to call the doctor themselves like they used to do.
So, as we’re driving down the highway, I’m on the phone with
the doctor’s office explaining my situation. They said that they would get the
medication refill ordered. A few minutes later, I called Walmart again, and the
answering machine picked up my call and asked for my name, and I explained what
I needed. I’m trying to explain, and the machine is interrupting me with more
questions. They wanted me to state my name and date of birth. I answered, “Dixie
Barnes and 10-09-51”. The machine replied, “You said June 9, 1951. Is that
correct? Say yes or type in 1” I said “No! October 9, 1951” The machine replied
“I’m sorry, I didn’t get that. Is your birthday June 9, 1951? Say yes or type 1”.
By this time, my blood is boiling and I’m shouting in the
phone. Dennis is trying not to laugh but is shaking his head no. We finally got
my birthdate right, then they asked what I needed again. I told them I needed
my Latanoprost eye drops. After a moment, the machine replied, “we show that
medication is due for a refill. Is this correct? Say yes or type 1.” I replied “Yes!
I need my Latanoprost eye drops.”
Finally, the machine said “your order is being processed and
may be picked up tomorrow after 4 p.m.”
“Thank God!” I replied.
I think next month I’m going to go into Walmart myself to
pick it up after checking it out online. That seems to work better for me and
my blood pressure.
Monday, January 5, 2026
New Year Resolutions Better Late Then Never
I’m a little
late with my resolutions this year, although I have thought about what I wanted
to do. I want to keep them do-able, but not so easily that I get bored.
I could make
the usual resolutions again. Every year I vow to lose weight and rarely
accomplish that. Or if I do lose some weight, I usually get it back with the
first holiday, usually Valentine’s Day. I
tend to eat when I’m bored, lonely or lazy.
What do I
want to pledge this year? I’m on Mounjaro injections weekly, and it has started
to curb my appetite. I still think I’m hungry, but if I eat more than I should,
I start to feel like I’ve swallowed a lump of coal. That works well to make me
stop overeating. Now to stop eating before I get to that point!
Another
resolution I would like to try is to get more exercise in my daily routine. We
have a new gym business downtown in the former Blackwood’s Department store
building. I haven’t been in to visit yet, but it sounds like a good idea.
I like to
resolve to do good things each year too. To be less grumpy with Dennis when he’s
grumpy with me. I know he’s grumpy because of pain and he feels guilty because
he can’t do everything he wants to do outside. I need to be less reactive to
his grumpiness by being that way myself.
I need to
get our house back into shape, so we can not be embarrassed when someone comes
to our door. Dennis has tools and other equipment all over our yard, and inside
is the same way. And my art and crafts are everywhere inside. I’m thinking about
having an auction of my art, just within the family. That way I can keep it in
the family and yet clear space in our home. The art that doesn’t sell can be
put on a general auction after we die. I have plenty of supplies in almost
every medium that can be donated after I’m gone, or given to members of the family
who like to do art.
My books! I’ve
books on almost every subject. Maybe I should open a new library, The Barnes
Memorial Library. Hey that sounds pretty good. I’ll have to think about that
for a while longer. In the meantime, if anyone wants any books, I’m trying to
downsize. I have a few I want to keep, but the others are available at any time
(the ones I’ve read but don’t want to keep). They are all mine, picked up from
shopping sites, bookstores, or from the Weedy Shelf at the local library. They
may have some markings and labels on them, and some have plastic coverings for
the book jackets, which are nice. I wish I had some of those jackets for the
books I want to keep.
Another
resolution I am making is to read my Bible through in one year. I’ve done this
one before, and did complete it, although I admit I skipped through a lot of
some of the boring parts, like all the laws and rules governing the early Israelites
and Hebrews. And the begets. Confusing and boring. The only family tree I’m
interested in is mine and Dennis’s.
So I guess
my resolutions would have to be:
1.
1. Reading my Bible and studying it in
a year.
2.
Continue
working on getting into better shape through diet, medications, and exercise.
3. Be more positive in my reactions to others and less irritated by ordinary misfortunes.
4. Sort through my art and supplies, paintings and other collections and determine which can be donated, sold or given away to clear space in our home.
5. Learn to enjoy life without spending a lot of time and money on electronic equipment.